Chuck had an interesting observation "when gravity is pulling me in one direction, I can't help wondering what's in the other direction." He did a mid-career 180 turn, completely changing his style and focus.
There was some more talk about dealing with depression as an artist/cartoonist. I keep wondering about how prevalent depression is among us!!?
On that note, I did not take too many notes today as I started sketching this (while listening VERY carefully!):
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| My demons ©Sandy Bartholomew |
I've also been kind of soaking in a little bit of self-pity-exhaustion-from-being-sick-for-three-weeks-legal-overwhelm-touch-of-depression-and-a-jigger-of-loneliness... stew.
When I left this morning, I'd hoped for a hug/kiss from the Fireman, but he wasn't home. He didn't answer my text. At the very least, a hug from my MOM! She didn't answer her text. I looked around town for her. Nope. I went to see if my friend Stefanie was around. Nope. I checked the Fireman's house again. Alas. I started back to school... with a quick swing by Bonnie's house. Nope.
I just kind of slunk back to school feeling self-pity-exhaustion-legal-overwhelm-touch-of-depression-and-a-jigger-of-loneliness. And the drive is just long enough to really soak in the stew without actually reaching any useful decisions. By the time I got to class, I was thinking, "Oh well, at least I'll always have my demons."
I'm counting this as the second in my Cartoon Therapy series. I just wish I could journal without having to feel so bad. But, for now, I'll just go with it. And maybe blow off the rest of my to-do list and watch a movie!
6 comments:
I so enjoy reading your trials and tribulations ... only because you're putting your heart on your sleeve ... but at the same time showing your resolve with your whimsical pictures (and excellent writing). You're voicing the insecurities of most of us (family, work, art, future) - thanks for that! And also for the 'keep at it' attitude. Thank you for sharing!
And thank you for reading it!
That helps too. :-)
Sandy, sending you a hug through the airwaves. (Of course, I see that hug now in cartoon style complete with wings LOL!)
Just love this post, Sandy. Sounds like just how I feel right now, and I'm really struggling, but Zentangle is starting to help me. It takes my mind of things that are going on around me because I have to concentrate so hard on what I'm doing. Your cartoon/drawing skills are amazing, and I just adore your books, so keep going, hon, and please keep sharing all your wonderful ideas/designs with us all. Lots of hugs coming your way.
Yup, I truly believe art reflects life and life reflects art. Eleven years ago I was forced to do a 180 of my life or else... let me just say, only by rubbing up against all the undesirable feelings did it allow them to change. Love this expression, "If it never rained, we would never feel the sunshine." BIG WARM BEAR HUGS, SANDY. Love sharing your cyber-space-cartoon-life-experiences with you.... :) XO
So true!
"No rain, no rainbow."
Hugs back to you. :-)
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